And Now For Another Episode of "As My Stomach Turns"...
I had a talk with my husband and told him that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to being a wife.
Update: Aug 22, 2007 - I had to edit this post and delete some things I wrote because some of it could come back to bite me in the ass later.
This is my second marriage. The same thing happened in my first one and it only lasted a year before we separated.
I don't know what my role as a wife is supposed to be. I don't know how to live by rules. I don't know who I am in this marriage. For the past two years, I've been going through this identity crisis trying to fit my personality into this relationship. I just can't do it. Who am I if I'm not the person who does what she wants, when she wants, and in whatever way she wants to do it? And you know what? I like that about myself. There are probably more things I don't like about myself than there are things I like, but goddamn it, that's one of the things I don't want to (and can't) change. It's not a role I play, it's just who I am.
A Great Self-Help Resource
I found a link to an online book called Psychological Self-Help, and just started reading through it. It looks helpful and hopefully, I'll learn something. It focuses on techniques for solving problems by using a step-by-step approach. It's written by two doctors and I'm surprised and happy that they offer it for free, because I really need some advice right now.
